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Saturday, May 26, 2007

11:58 PM

my heart crumbles as i watch my beacon of light fall.all hope seems lost and i find myself getting darker and darker each day.suddenly life does not seem so bright.i need my light back in my life.i need that cheer.people say that that they see it less in me now.that i am turning into this darker person who seems less cheery and less sociable.i must say that i have been trying.as stress builds up people turn into creatures whom they themselves dont even know.the monsters within that just shut themselves out from the world and once in a while it just fills themselves up with sadness that you just want to break down and cry.come to think of it.aint it a pity.if only happiness was not only just a word that we can touch in a book but an emotion that we can actually feel,express and exude.with such i suppose many in the world would turn for the better.i often ask myself.why create such a word,an expression when it just seems but such an unreachable goal.it would just fill everyone with regret and many would just end up questioning themselves about their past,present and future.i think humans are pitiful creatures who have to suffer and dwindle in self pity,in self-denial when notice that almost all the the other animals in the world are seemingly just enjoying life and taking each day as it comes.yet all we ever do is to worry.aint life like that just very unfair?i cant believe that ive come to a point where at times i even envy the carefree nature and life of animals.what's happening to me.

you promised me heaven,but alas you sent down rain

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;